Thank you!

I know that my last blog post was despressing to read, it was way more depressing to write but it helped me SO much! It is amazing how you never know just how many people care about you and are there for you until you reach out to them.
I am so lucky to have so many friends still from childhood, high school, college, and my ward. I have had so many people offer me some great advice and help. It is so great to know that I am not alone in my struggles too. I'm really motivated to get my weight under control. I know that I'm really not "big" but I am just uncomfortable and self concious about it.
I am so lucky to have a hubby that has always been into fitness and is very supportive when it comes to helping me out.
I am getting a gym membership next month. I am just trying to figure out if I want one to Golds or 24 Hour Fitness. Gotta do my research on pricing and what classes they offer.
I also did a detox wrap last week. It goes into your skin and into the fat layer to break up the fat cells and draw out the excess water weight. I lost 4 inches and 3 lbs in the last week. It is so awesome! I wanna do one again.
Anyway, I just wanted to write a post to let you all know that I am doing better and to say thank you for all your love and support.

On my way to a healthier and happier me!

I am not usually one to post such personal things on my blog but I am following a friends advice/example and trying to pull down some walls that I have built up over the years. This is so hard for me and I am crying as I type this but I feel like being completely honest with myself and my friends is the first step...
I have struggled with my weight since I had my kids. I know that I should've worked out during and right after my pregnancies but I was always sooo sick and working out was the last thing on my mind. After my babies were born, I got PPD and it took alot for me to even function some days. So I really let myself go.
Well, at the beginning of last year I started working out and eating really well and I lost 20 lbs. I was so excited and wanted to lose more but then we decided to go to Kansas and it seemed like everything was thrown up in the air. There was so much to do and so much to think about, I lost interest in it and stopped caring. I've kept the weight off but given up on trying for more.
I have hit a point where I feel like I HAVE to lose this weight to be happy again. I know that my weight has held me back from doing a lot of things. It has even held me back from hanging out with friends and making new friendships. Whenever I was invited to go somewhere my first thought would be, "What am I going to wear? Do I have anything that I don't feel fat in?" and I would honestly some times, decide not to go because I wouldn't want people to see me at this weight.
I have alot of regrets about letting myself get this way and for taking on this attitude about myself but I am trying to change it. I am so bad at keeping things bottled up and pulling away from people instead of reaching out but I wanna be better, I need to be better.
I know that this probably sounds so dumb to some of you but I am reaching out, I need help to get back on track. Rob has always been super supportive but I feel like I need my girlfriends who understand and are on my same page to give me advice. I have some friends who are dieting themselves, really into fitness and train people too, and I would appreciate your input.
What are your routines? What has worked for you? What are some healthy diet foods that you like and don't get sick of? Is there any supplements that you take, that work? How do you find time to exercise with kiddos running around? If I wait til the end of the day, I am so exhausted! Any advice would be so awesome.
Thanks for listening and caring. That was super hard for me but I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I can move up and in the right direction.
By posting this I feel like I am holding myself accountable for changing because I have put myself out there. One step at a time....

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

Our Christmas was such a blast! The best one yet. We have so many fun traditions we have started. We drove around a couple nights before Christmas, looking at lights. We went to the "christmas street" in Taylorsville, Winder Dairy, Thanksgiving Point and the Spanish Fork festival of lights. The kids were in ahhh the whole time. We also decorate cookies and read "The Night Before Christmas" on the night before Christmas. Kaydence always is excited to see how many cookies Santa ate when she wakes up.
We always celebrate Christmas with our little family on Christmas Eve because we are sooo busy on Christmas day and it spreads out the fun. :)

Decorating the tree



Reading "The Night Before Christmas"


Making cookies for Santa :)




The stockings were hung....

Santa finally finished his work around 2 a.m.

The kids woke up around 8 and Kaydence came running into our room asking if Santa had come. We all went out there together and she went nuts the second she saw her dollhouse. Easton was so fun to watch open his presents. He kept saying "Whoa" and "what's that" it was so cute. It took us about 2 hours to open all the presents because the kids wanted to open each one and play with it before going on to the next present. Kaydence loved everything she got and definitely loved her make-up kit the most, after her dollhouse of course.









We go to my families house for dinner on Christmas Eve. Santa (my old Bishop from whem I was growing up) comes and gives the kids a candy cane and tells them to go to bed. The kids love seeing him! It is such a fun tradition and I remember being so excited to see him when I was little.
We draw names for who will buy a present for in the family and we open those presents and pajamas from Grandma that night.


My brother and his cute wife and daughter



Easton checking out his new book. Poor little guy got a hold of a cup of egg nog and drank it all before we realized what it was. He was COVERED in hives 5 minutes later. This egg allergy is NO fun.

As you can see, Kaydence loves her make-up. I think she had 20 layers of it on by then. LOL!

All the Timothy grandkids (Ellie (6), Kaydence(4), Cole(3), Easton(1&1/2), Summer(1), Aria (1) and Caleb( 7 months))

Christmas morning we went to Rob's parents house to open presents.

All tuckered out. Rob, Steve and Easton

Rapunzel opening another present

Me and my lil man

Easton LOVED this cat toy. LOL! He played in it forever.

After that we went back to my parents for breakfast and presents. The kids got fold out couches from my parents and the LOVE them. They honestly spend most of the day playing on them. I am so lucky to have such a big, loving family. We are really lucky to live to close to everyone and get to see them every holiday.

Kaydence and her papa





On New Years Eve we hung out with our next door neighbors, Amy and Steve. They are so great! We are so lucky to have them live next door.
Amy and I made tons of food! That is what you get when you send 2 hungry women, who are about to go on a diet, to the store for snacks. The guys laughed at us but didn't complain when they got to eat all our yummy food. We played games and laughed all night. The guys kept trying to sneak away to play xbox but we hid the remotes so we could have their attention for a couple hours. LOL! Kaydence and their little girl Zailey played all night. They wanted to see how late they could stay up for their "sleep over" but they tuckered out around 11:30. So close. It was such a blast!


Zailey took this lovely pic and told us to show her our butts. Silly girls!


Twinners. We are such dorks, we wore matching shirts cuz our hubbies always says that we are 2 peas in a pod. LOL!


The best of friends!




These 2 are a riot when they are together!


Rob and Steven, deep in thought. LOL! They make the FUNNIEST faces when they play.

2011 was such an awesome, adventurous year! Who would've thought that we would've moved away for 5 months and got to experience something so fun/emotional at the same time. We learned alot last year and are so excited to see what 2012 has to offer us. We have already accomplished a HUGE goal that we had for this year and are so ready to tackle more. This is definitely the most hopeful that I have been to start out a new year because I know it is going to be GREAT!
Hope all of you had a happy holiday and have a wonderful new year!